Microbus fantasy

Here it is. I’ll buy an old microbus, and a nice manual about keeping them alive, and go on a year-ish-long road trip around these United States. I’ll stop and camp at National Parks and on beaches. I’ll stop and eat at all of the Roadfood recommended restaurants. I’ll visit giant balls of twine, haunted doll museums, abandoned farm houses, lakes, rivers, streams, wayward cows on the roadside and oh it will be splendid. The only thing is, I’ll have to figure out how to support myself along the way. Perhaps you have suggestions? I can probably learn to make pretty websites for people.

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Aokigahara

Located at the base of Mount Fuji, it’s also known as the “suicide forest.” A bunny trail from the Wikipedia page on the Golden Gate Bridge led me to it, and I’ve been fascinated ever since. If you look past the occasional corpse lolling from a tree, it’s got an otherworldly beauty.

I’ve had trouble with the difference between “romantic” and “macabre” since I was introduced to Edgar Allan Poe’s Annabel Lee in middle school. I’d like to go there and set up a tea party. Yes, I’d wear a frilly, lacy birthday party dress with a too-large bow in my hair. Macaroons, fruit tarts, petit fours, and other confectionary would gleam enticingly from under glass domes and on tiered stands. The table would be set with pairwise non-matching tea cups.

I don’t flatter myself that I would be able to prevent even one suicide, but I do want to be there in case anyone wants a last bite of pudding and sip of tea — but just not alone. Or in case someone has a few last words that they want a person to hear. I want to be that person. I want those final stories. I will collect those hearts, for mending.

Sailor fantasy

No, it’s not what you think. I don’t fantasize the way other people do. This is a recent one.

After a dull day at work, I stopped by my favorite stationery store for mindless browsing. I brought a few little things to the register — just mildliners and stickers. As I paid, the cashier asked if I was registered for their loyalty program. I was, so I gave her my name. She typed my name into the system and said, “Oh, hm. I have something for you.” She handed me a paper bag. “What’s this?” She didn’t have a clue.

Outside the store, under the dome of the shopping center, I looked in the bag. There was a box and a letter. Contained in the box was this pen. The letter was written in a beautiful but nearly illegible hand. It said simply,

Darling Dolly,

I hear you like demonstrators. 

I love you. 

<3, B 

New wildest fantasy

Greetings from the frozen wasteland of the library.

I was reminded of a different frozen wasteland. The fabulous monster you see above is known heartlessly as “Jotunheim Creature”. To me, he would be “Fluffy”. He would be my best friend, and my primary form of transportation. Talk about traveling in style! Forget traffic, Fluffy crashes through it in impossibly majestic leaps. Best of all, he, like Hannibal Lecter, hates it when people are rude, so he also feasts on the free range rude.

He may look terrifying, but is actually a big sweetheart and is always ready to comfort with an affectionate nuzzle. He’s just a little territorial. I’d have to have a sign on my property “Warning: Jotunheim Creature prone to spells of irascible overprotectiveness.”

Fun on Valentine’s Day

Dress ups

Is nothing sacred to a troll? Of course not. Not love, and especially not Valentine’s Day. Now you don’t have to  let it be about smug couples and overpriced chocolates. Or about that yawning abyss of loneliness. Here’s what you do:

1. Find something saucy to wear. My favorite is that “burlesque corset” you see above.

2. Prance around in it on Valentine’s Day in a busy romantic/restaurant district near dinner time.

3. Watch in glee as one half of every couple gawks at your gorgeousness and the other half throws a hissy fit.

My wildest fantasy

Yes, I thought I’d share it with you for Valentine’s Day, gentle reader. Or at least this story about it. I was once asked by a significant other what my wildest fantasy was. I responded, “It’s that I have a dragon! And I fly all over on his back, and when someone displeases me, he sets them on fire!”

We were in a hottub at the time, in mixed company and my answer elicited uproarious laughter from everyone present. “No, Dolly. Sexual fantasy…” someone finally said. I hadn’t answered that way to be coy; that really was my wildest fantasy back then. The question about sexual fantasies was completely uninteresting to me, and I explained to them, “There’s nothing fantastical about sexual acts. All you have to do is ask the person next to you, or something. In my case, who can I ask to make my fantasy come true?”

If, this Valentine’s Day, the impossibility of your love or the intractability of your wildest sexual fantasy is giving you anxiety, remember me. I have a far less probable fantasy than yours. Remember me and how there’s nothing I can do about mine. But for you, there’s hope! After all, if you never ask, you’ll never know.

All my love,
Dolly